since birth, crying has been seen as a sign of being alive. And i believe that to be true. Last night, I cried for the longest time. The type of crying that comes from your soul. Not because I’m not happy but because I am finally able to say that and feel it be completely true. Every tear shed was from being truly happy. And you know what, I honestly wish that for you one day. Out of everything that we’ve been through, and everything you put me through, I still don’t wish you anything less than happiness. Eventually you will see what you lost and you will see what would’ve been. But as i’ve always told you, everything happens for a reason. And there was a reason for this. But one day your happiness will come and I hope that day comes soon…..
with love & respect…always.
With infinite care, I stamped my spade
Into the heavy grass.
The sod sucked it,
And I drew it out with effort,
Watching the steel run liquid in the moonlight
As it became clear.
I stooped, and dug, and never turned,
For behind me,
On the dried leaves,
My own face lay like a white pebble,
Waiting." - Amy Lowell, from “Dreams in War Time” (via awritersruminations)
(via booklover)
I love how you’ve done so much…you’ve done so much to lose me and the minute you figure that I am actually gone, you want to try and fight. I don’t understand why it would take something like that before you realized what you had. And if SHE bothered you so much then you should’ve been there right? i also love how you assume you know everything. You think what you want therefore you torture yourself. Yes the feelings are definitely different now than they were a year ago. But if you’re going to blame someone, blame yourself. SHE didn’t do anything but be there the same way you should’ve been. dis it go any further than that? no. Has it gone any further than that? no. But instead of being mature about it and asking me, you assume and ignore me. So you get no answers from me. No remorse whatsoever. Because I was nothing but good to and for you. And one day you will indeed see that but it will be too late. Point of this little rant? You treated me like an option so I left you like a choice.
